well that was fun, but an incredibly poor choice in realtion to finals

notess so i dont forget: nobody's driving, angelfuck, dunelan, pa - melanie?s vegan dinner, mark mckay, dancing in teh dark, no timorous me :C or blindness, what's that new song about expert hands?, eddie and the hot rods, bal'mor', traveling, cabbages, thank you, requests from b-more shows,

i didnt almost faint like at maxwells, haha, but stilla good show. most likey didnt because reality was pecking at the back of my brain. speaking of which. two papers by five o'clock...lets see what happens. haha im not worried about the one due at 2 tommorrow.

i have a paper due in two hours and i cant focus on anything!
well, except for one thing.
something i should not be focusing on right now!

my eyesight is getting so terrible
i also realized last night, well i've realized it before , but i realized it concretely yesterday and remembered, that i have this terrible habit of sometimes when i can't hear someone i'll just laugh, because i know i'll have to ask them to repeat it three times and still hear it wrong. maybe my temporal lobe (i typed love like eight times instead of lobe. fuck freud, but slip much? anyway) is just messed up.
i'm falling apart.
i feel like i'll deaf and blind by the time i'm 45.
maybe i'm exaggerating a little, but i still freak out about it.


okay, enviro ethics paper GO!

87 million and a half back

i purposefully signed off aim so i wouldnt get distracted
                                  and then proceeded to download music for 3+ hours.
well nothing out of my standard routine i guess.
             i need to be more disciplined

BUT!
       it is also important to note
  why did i think i wouldnt like santogold?!

according to intarwebz documentation of my music listening via lastm
i have listened to world/inferno more than sufjan stevens.

i thought it might happen someday, but it's so weird that it finally has...


also, i should take this opportunity to point out that i am remarkably skilled at making public quite inane amusements when i should be writing papers!

why didn't i go to that ted leo against me show?!

i need to make better life choices.

i think this all the time about beirut:

it would be deeeeevine to stroll about completely engrossed in another person hopping in fountains and dancing in gazebos and whatnot.

same may go for herb alpert, but not as much. only some songs. it would be more like our wacky summer vacation or the home syrupy sweet home movies we'd make.

i gave myself another haircut.
i was a bit nervous since i hadnt done anything other than bangs in a while, but it definitely went well! i guess you'd call it a bob. my non-DIY housemates approved, so i know it doesn't look like utter crap.
i let my computer run overnight to backup all my music files on my second external and to let all my files import into my itunes. finally. i was puttinf it off/trying to do it in small batches, but i conceded.
also, i need to remember to watch la blogotheque much more often. i forgot how awesome it was.
but really, what i truly need to do is my art history reading!

gah

i keep going to write and it keeps not happening.

shit i just lost my train of thought! gah. alright well let me try to write about something:

aliie came to visit this weekend. we were torn between her coming here as planned or heading to a fancy party. but things like money, time, work and other general life maintenance got in the way. this october is crazy. (this weekend, next weekend: fran's, seta's, jmar's, les savy fav next: work next: work next: HALLOWMAS! (that makes it not sound busy but it is!))

there is a butternut squash sitting on my bed right now. we were going to roast it with some assortment of fall spices and apples and pumkpin and walnuts, but we made pumpkin baked ziti with carmelized onions and sage breadcrumbs instead! we had planned on making peanut butter caramel apple bars with the apples we picked on saturday with allieaxel and marisa, but didn't have time. however! that's okay cause we made pumpkin chocolate chip cookies that we pretty delicious. i just gotta deal with ALL THESE APPLES and that squash pretty soon.

we wound up going to a pretty OOF party on saturday night. allie really wanted to go out so we did. i didn't even feel like drinking, but it was five dollars at the door even if i was abstaining. marz and greg and also lea, i believe, were supposed to be there, but they had to leave early, really early. blah blah drugs blah blah. we were gonna not go in and ten we ran into chris and elaine so went with them. it was at randy's old house that is now the rugby house i think? randy was there and mark and rose and jenna and sandy as well. big ry and some of the guys who lived there last year were there. but really no one i'm tight with. and everyone there i didnt know was pretty damn boring. and the cops came or a landlord or something. that was fun. we had to old our breaths and while we werent being quiet enough some drunk bitty was squawking at us to shut the fuck up. the most fun part was probably the walk back home though. i wish we'd stayed home and cooked/baked OR, even more so, that we couldve made it up to westchester.

i died my hair back to my natural hair color...almost. it went back to brown and then we put a temporary red over it and it's a pretty awesome color. you should have seen the smile on my fathers face when he came to pick allie up. it was cute and really frustrating at the same time. but in order to make my life easier i'll let him think that my crazy rebellion was just a stage and i'm normal and civilized now. i sent some ziti home for my mom. she appreciates my cooking even if it's weird and vegan. she's so stretched right now with all this stuff with my grandma.

i feel like i had intentions to write something else, but i can't think of it and now i've got to READ FOR CLASSES! Mondays are pretty awful, ughhhhhh.

really mad i didn't see ponytail this summer.

also there was a cubrat meeting today and


phone call moar to come

aren't exactly vegan are they!

(yea, not the first to think of it...obviously)
((but more obviously, i am making slooooow progress on this paper!))

as if i needed another reason to find mystery vegan shoe punk and become his significant other.

no one's going to invent a time machine before the human race dies out.
if this future person/persons had
i'm sure they would have gone back in time and fixed what we screwed up.
OR
whoever invented it was a malicious little bastard
OR
whoever invented it went back in time and fucked up and fixed the wrong thing and now in this new series of events it wont be reinvented/reinvented in time.
OR
whoever invented it didn't have enough time to solve the moral dilemma of what to fix if anything.




i should still be writing my paper.

alright so!
i haven't written in a little bit, and i just got hit with a little blast of awesomeness.
i recently got aquainted with a bunch of awesome kids. they were residents on rick's floor last year (most of them i think) and i thought they seemed cool and i wound up going bowling with them through mutual friends on tuesday night and they are super nice and so friendly! whole bunch of them live in new res this year, which is neat cause i see them quite a decent bit.
also! i talked to todd about how to go about booking a show in the rat and he said he'd introduce me to mike at CUB next week and that the shows have a budget of 2,000 to 5,000 dollars depending on the night. there's a show every other tuesday i think he said. it was super awesome news for me to hear since when i emailed Ethan of E-603 he said he;d charge 600 to 800 bucks! my brain is racing and i see that matt and kim are playing  in pittsburg the end of november the 21st and they could totally hit up tcnj on their way homeeeee. pleaseplease please! oh man.
i'm so glad i'm getting involved with CUB. too damn bad i probably wont get to see demitri martin at the school since i'll be in australia. i probably couldve gotten to meet him in person too! ugh!
well. we'll see when it happens.
i'm excited for more bowling.
not excited for all the office and night desk shifts i have this weekend. also not excited that the office is screwing up our pay sheets and wont give them to my boss to fill out.  agh! i'd really appreciate the check for the damages done to my car to get here as well!
i wanna throw a huge party, but i have nowhere to do so. my house is only half a house in terms of parties. i could get away with a hangout, but it'd be awkward to have a whoooole bunch of people over since i barely know my housemates.

oh and speaking of australia! i have so much left to do for paperwork! and trying to figure out what classes to take is so hard. I've already taken the equivalent for most of the gender classes they're offering! Ouch. And all the most interesting sounding classes on materical i haven't covered are graduate level. booooo! maybe i can finagle my way into a graduate class. and maybe i can do an independent study or internship with Jura books! they seem to be the BESSSSSST collectively owned bookstore i've yet to come across! they have a reading library annnnnnnnd THEY RUN A FOOD CO-OP!!!
http://jura.org.au/

hello sir, it's been far too long.

also.
i totally lost my indietorrents account because i got all intimidated and didnt use it. ugh. good job idiocy.

oh man i forgot i was writing this.
posting like five hours later or something.

but i really ought to sleep.

i was all wound up and couldn't sleep i restarted my computer so i could write back to the email kimmie sent me and also ask her if she could pass along my email to cute bookstore boy.

oh this could be bad.
and awkward.

but i did it
and i'm hoping the results turn out well.

alright.
well
even though i have so many thoughts swirling around in my head about this and other topics
i really do need to get to sleep

here i go trying to do so!

i haaaaaave my ticket to see les savy fav at music hall of williamsburg october 12th!

YEA!

urusai.muxtape.com

i am in the process of convincing myself that if i can compile a stellar soundtrack i will run all the time.
timourous me will be on this playlist.
i will sprint on the breakdowns.
i also intend to dance while running.
maybe being adorable will make up for my tomato face.
or at least make me look more INTENSE!

i have so much love in my heart for ted leo and the pharmacists.


soooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.
wish i i could put that more eloquently right now.
i listened to me and mia approximately 11 times in a row on the bus today.
it was nestled among other tracks, but i kept coming back to it.
it felt so good to just have someone singing to me that knew exactly how i felt and reassuring me that i should keep fighting.

the she-bang is tomorrow!
i'm so excited for tabling and awwsomeness and learning and maybe meeting awwsome feminists!

i'm also hanging out with my cousin tonight!

i also need to get back to work...